"24 Hours From Greatness..." Baq At Poetry

24 hours from Greatness
Striving for the best
What I’ve been taught since birth
Get it done, finish fast
Always finish first
But at what cost is it all?
In the end what’s the worth?
Greatness
I’m doing it all
Closer to my dreams
Staying above the clouds
Never anticipating to fall
Taking on the world
I can handle it all
Long days
Followed by booked nights
Wake up early
To get to sleep is a fight
Insomnia is hand in hand with ambition
This alone is not what I envision
I guess it comes with my decision
Greatness
I need it but I’m worn
Quit or keep it up, I’m torn
Time is escaping me, fading to cold from warm
The life leaving me as I pursue the Perfect Life
So my success turns into my demise
I refuse to give up, so I will never close my eyes
And I fall
And it hurts
But for what I strive for its worth
The pain, it’s worth it
The days I work, it all comes at a price

The death of my sanity for the Perfect life
And the twist if the knife
I’m still 24 hours from Greatness

xoxoxoxo

S U N N I

"School Daze ...."

Hey all, well all is well over here. Next week is midterms then BREAK! Man I'm so excited to sleep IN. I rarely get any effin' sleep but its the price you pay when handling business right? This is truly gonna be the year of the hard worker for me. I'm not stopping at all. I may complain a lil but hey, FUUUCKKKK ITT! While I have definately added stress to my plate, I've removed a bit as well. All in all I'm just fine. Well back to studying but who knows I might just get inspired ....

xoxoxo

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"Pressure ..."

I'll take all the pressure off of you ... Well people life is great! Well if it were that simple the world would be less chaotic. Things are going- well they're going. I'm at school what seems like too damn much but I see the light at the end of the tunnel and it keeps me going. Family, Tinkey and I made up, well it last I hope so. Friends, I couldn't ask for better ones. Friendships ... a lot are being mended, but the most important ones remain strong. Relationships ... holding off on those for a minute .. I got bad luck with guys but I'm not bitchin' I got a whole life ahead of me. I'm doing phenomenal , I'm back to my old nerd self. YIKES! lol But its my comfort zone, correcting people and such. I can't wait til March! It ain't getting here quick enough lol ... MONEYS! OH RIGHT! I have a lot of things that I have to post here, so stay posted. Well Niecys waiting on the computer so I'll ttyl

toodles

xoxoxoxo

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"Roger That!!!"

Sooooooo, I'm at school and its time for an UPDATE: I talked to my budddyyy Michael and hes doing fine, thats good congrats goes to him he graduated, woot woot! ummmmmm, the ex has tryed to get in touch with me to talk about us *psssstttttt* there is no "us" loser ... meanwhile a number of people predicted that. I began apartment searching sooo maybe I shall find a nice one .... school is going phenominally, my mother and I are on peaceful terms *whew! finally!* and my stress level has indefinitly decreased, well maybe not indefinitly ... and I have stopped looking for a man, I've decided to act like one ... whoa whoa whoa! I don't want a girl lol I just wanna have fun, hell I'm young! ... welll I had to share that epiphany .... PS I have a crush lol well its kinda been this way ince I met his person but helll hes sooo fucking sexy to me dayum! you know who you are lol ... and you guys know who he is but I'll spare the details ... *cough* whiteboy lol well I got to goo class is in session

xoxoxo

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"Pretty mama if you're single ... single"

Soooo, the infamous Valentines day is coming soon ... yay ... that of course was complete sarcasm ... I plan on being alone on Valentines day, well minus my friends. I'm totally cool with it though because if i can't spend it with who I want I don't want to think about it. Anyways, everything is going as plannned ... but this person keeps popping up out of nowhere ... hes very persistent but I pay him no mind because I got my eye on aother ... the other? well he isn't new but he isn't old ... we've stayed in touch over the years but as friends only. idk you guys know I'm complicated, hell guys are too. I really just want to be alone right now though. I've been hurt TOO much and it has me thinking that maybe its best that I stop thinking and stop looking. I am going to stop, hell let my prince charming find me lol even though they don't exist and that by far is pretty corny. Well I'm gonna listen to some music and wait for my class to start ... tttyl

XOXOXO

S U N N I

"You don't know my name..... ..."

SOOO ... there is a scheduled change for now, lol the new Pretty Insane is the old Sada Says ... nothing has changed but the name ... trust me the content will be the same if not better .. so stay with me ... please don't leave me lol ... Meanwhile: I'm in school awaiting the start of my next class... nothing more nothing less... oh and theres this guy ... I know theres always a guy lol but this guy is really trying really hard, but I don't want anything to do with anybody let alone any guy ... hes nice though .. am I wrong... the Gods shall answer that one I guess. I'm looking at a different school in a different city but my mother wants me to stay because its cheaper to stay home. i'm lost on my decision but shit ... idk .. well alot of things are going on and as you know I'm still busy but I will dedicate my time to update this blog because I realize my neglect ... sooooo with that said ttyl lol

xoxoxoxo

S U N N I

"Snowed In..."

So if you're in Chicago right now... and you're outside ... on this day February 9th 2010, you see the white catastrophe! Its snowing, not just pretty whte and pretty fluffy, but SNOW! ICE COLD SNOW! wtf on this day I had to get on the bus to go to school, thus regretting taking last Tuesday off becuase I was sick. I have two exams to make up.... it's all my fault! But whatever ... in other news I got two gents on my tail lol .... but I'm focused on staying single ... and I am gonna stay single , I'm gonna let love find me instead of the other way around ... its tooo much work! but newhoots I gotta go to class so until lata

xoxoxo

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"Love don't live here anymore FML"

So this Valentines day I'm ridin' solo.... oh well maybe its for the best, maybe its meant to be. But it still sucks! I wanna be all hugged up and ish lol but oh well I guess I'll get some ice cream, grab my teddy bear and watch movies all night.... SYKE me and the girls are gonna kick it HARD fuck the bull .... I'm not the sob story type, I don't feel sorry for myself ... with that said I'm ready for Valentines day .... BRING IT!


xoxox bitches

S U N N I

"Hey .... Can anyone hear me? ... HEYYYY!!"

So its been too friggen long! So much has happened aye. I got my heart broken twice, I started school again, got a job quit it got another, moved ut moved in and moved out again ... damn and thats not even half of it. Well I'm Back nitches! just cleared that up moment of clarity! ... ttys babes xoxoxo

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