"Pursuit of happiness ... "

HEYYYYYYYYYY!!! lol Long time no type right ... welllllllll lemme get you up to speed ... Done with the semester thank goodness :) Ummm I'm back in Chicago ... with the bestest .. Had a pretty lame breakup with someone I truly cared for but hey shit happens .... I am pretty content with things so far although everything could always be better ... Ummmmm Follow me on TWITTER =) @SemiiPerfectt =)

"Unthinkable..." *poetry*

Wise words fall upon deaf ears
And even the strongest can't hide from their fears
Even the boldest can't escape their tears
I've learned this lesson over the pass years
Played with fire, feigning invincibility
Bandaging the burns as the bruises start rekindling
My senses became dull, and soon I lost the ability
To weave through the lies and find the truth, what a penalty
It's occurred to me, that the best thing to do is wait
Start all over, clean off my slate
Patience is a virtue, I've picked up that trait
Lets just hope that it isn't too late...

"As I Reminisce....." *poetry*

I remember the moment you expressed your love to me
It was so cute, how you retreated and kissed me instead
How you started to stutter, then briskly shaking your head
You said "Never mind man," So I turned around
Then you just spit it out
It sounded something like "I lo- mmm... I love you man"
You turned your head as if avoiding a hit not expecting me to grab your hand
I love you too, and that I meant
You asked "for real?" as if you didn't believe the shit
At that moment your shoulders dropped in relief
I smiled in both uncertainty and disbelief
I don't know if it was the Jello-Shots, the kush, or the fact that we were on a bus stop bench
But for a minute I felt my surroundings fade away and the scene of us ascend
Damn, for a slight second I was spent
Thoughts jumbled up, thinking something like 'not this again'
Vulnerable, sitting next to a nigga that stole me
But instead of letting my fears control me
I let that goofy look on your face console me
You know that look you get when you're drunk
Instantly my insecurities shrunk
I mean hell, who would have thunk?
Here I thought you were out for one thing
You know That thing that thing that thinnnnngg (In my Lauren Hill voice)
And I settled for that shit, thinking, I'm young
We can have fun
Get dumb high and pissy ass drunk
Sneaking you through my back door , while my mom wasn't home
Then defending you after she reached for the chrome (she crazy)
Instead you mad an impression on me
Had me second guessing me
I never believed in fate or destiny
That shit was for the birds, and its never been a chicken in me (haha)
But I caught myself thinking something like
'This could be, meant to be'
Or something corny like that
Opinion outweighing fact
You see happiness is temporary
and As sometimey beings, something permanent quickly turns scary
So we choose flight instead of fight
End shit on a cold note, run into one another later on and reminisce
Sometime down the line forgive but never do we forget
Got me thinking something like
"Ain't that about a bitch!"

"Can anybody Hear me??" *poetry*

This isn't how it should be
Love doesn't hurt
I guess I just answered my question
I guess I understand my worth
No one deserves heartbreak
But I guess its the inevitable
So i'll chuck it as a lost
As anyone else would do
Move on enjoy the happiness that I got
Go out, put my smile on
Look for someone to fill your spot
But know this, You wont get to me regardless what you do
And revenge is simply energy I just wont use
I wont waste my time pissed off or angry with you
What I' saying is I simply refuse
.........To be Continued I guess